Slow Down
As the title implies, that's been my life lately. Slowing down to see clearly. At first, silence makes me feel out of place. Because it was so loud before, I cannot hear myself.
So when it's been too quiet for so long, all the unsettled things deep in me resurface. It hit me; I don't know myself too well, not a bit. TI was blinded by the rose-colored glasses I kept putting on to fit in.
I was trying so hard to keep walking on this "normal road" everyone is expected to take on. Then I start blaming myself when things don't work out.
But what's really normal? What's being different? There are no definite answers.
xx
ET
Rekindling My Relationship With Life
Hello! What's up?
It seems like an eternity since I sat down and took the time to write and get to know myself. But I'm working on regaining control of things so that I can support myself. Yes, I'm rekindling my relationship with life as I should.
It's been so long that I've lost track of my train of thought. It knocked me. It's a never-ending loophole that repeats and shuffles itself just when I think I'm over it. Until I fell and hit my head on the ground again.
But I'm trying to breathe again; I've been struggling to do so the entire time. I'm reopening the curtains and rekindling with life in the same way that my inner child's heart sees the rainbow in it.
xx
ET
Panandaliang Saya
Nakalaya kang muli
Tila ika'y lumilipad
Ngunit sasapit ang dilim at ito'y magtatapos
Magiging blangko na naman ang lahat
Tila panandaliang saya lamang
Babagsak kang muli
Liham ni Eba
Dear Young One,
How are you?
Isn’t it been a long time?
But you do not know how much I miss you
I became so engrossed in the world
I’ve forgotten the life we had
Remembering those moments makes me smile
It was fun while it lasted
Things may not turn out as we had hoped
But we've come a long way
Thank you for your presence, then and now
You will always have a special place in my heart
Still you and me until the end
From where we are now,
ET
We have different facets that we show.
We create personas in response to the forces we face.
And we had to make adjustments based on our encounters.
It causes you to doubt and question your identity.
Outside forces will define you in ways
that you do not define yourself.
When your guard is down, you are most vulnerable and genuine.
Only we know what we want and what we consider our identity to be.
And being confused and lost by yourself is unavoidable
because it unfolds.
Katotohanan
Biglang napapahinto at natutulala
Kinukwestyon ang sarili at presensya
Katahimikan ang bumabalot sa kapaligiran
Bakit hindi pa rin matahimik ang isipan
Nalilito at nangangamba
Nadarama ay hindi mailahad
Ano na nga ba ang realidad
Ang hirap na makita
Totoo ba ang lahat
Talaga bang nandirito
Panaginip lang ata ito
Pilit naghahanap ng sagot
Pero malamig na hangin ang gigising
Pahiwatig na siya ay kapiling
Siya ang paalala at patutunguhan
Siya na tanging kasagutan at katotohanan
Liham Ni Eba
Ako ang daan, ang katotohanan,
at ang buhay.
Kamusta?
Araw-araw ay puno ng itim na ulap
At ang pakiramdam ay sumisikip
Pasikip nang pasikip
Pahirap nang pahirap
Umiiyak nang bigla
Hanggang wala nang mailuha
Umabot sa blangkong emosyon
Hindi mawari ang tensyon
Sa tuwing aahon ay hindi pa natatapos
Kailan ba ang katapusan nitong agos
Kasi nakakapagod na
Sobrang pagod na
Puno ng mga ano at bakit
Pero heto at kumakapit
Sumusubok at umaasa
Sakit ay iniinda
Siya pa ring tatanggapin
Sarili ay muli't muling iintindihin
Papaniwalaan ang lahat
Pilit magiging sapat
Liham Ni Eba
PS: Ikaw kamusta ka nga bang talaga?
Ala-ala
Hindi na maibabalik
Ang saya nung kapiling kita
Nung nandito ka sa aking tabi
Yung ako nung may tayo pa
Hindi na mangyayari
Wala ka na sa akin
Hanggang ala-ala na lang
Ala-ala ka na lamang
Liham ni Eba
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