Chaotic Calmness
As the title implies, that's how I've found how my life works for me. Life works differently for everyone, and I try to find calmness in my chaotic world. And by that, I don't mean I've got all the answers and have figured out how to navigate through every motion or every moment. I just embrace my differences and flaws.
My calmness doesn't always have to be as smooth and comforting as I had hoped it would be. It doesn't have to be a perfect pattern, and it is something I process every day. I accept both good and bad days. And I try to cope and hone myself to heal.
I live day by day, trying my best as I figure things out along the way. Recognizing my reality allows me to value my life and who I am; understanding that I cannot have control over everything helps me be more accepting and forgiving towards myself. To remind myself to always be kinder to myself.
"The only order in the universe is a cycle of calm and chaos."
xx
ET
Honing and Healing
Accepting and loving yourself wholly is a continuous process that will continue throughout your life. It's a love-hate connection that lasts your entire life. An ongoing journey to connect with and care for oneself. Because you will not always behold yourself and feel good about yourself. And every day is a challenge to survive all the things that coexist in your environment and in your life.
You are going through different times and phases with each passing day. As a result, you are always navigating your life and strengthening as time passes. And embracing oneself isn't as simple as it appears; of course, you'll miss the old you, which is difficult to let go of. But, in some ways, you learn to move on and live for the person you are now.
My constant endeavor is to rise above the circumstances that may come my way and to uplift myself with grace and faith every time. To always try to hone myself and emerge revived and stronger than before in ways that fill my heart and feed my soul. And to strive continuously to reconcile my past and present states in order to draw nearer to my ultimate self. I prioritize self-healing and nurturing a deeper connection with myself.
"The main thing experience has taught me is that one has to sort of hone their relationship to time, you know."
xx
ET
Consolation of Isolation
On the other side of isolation, it can have a positive impact on our self-improvement. Eliminating distractions leads to healing. This benefits our well-being and helps us become our deepest selves.
Gaining a deeper understanding of yourself, you become enlightened about what truly holds significance in your life. You'll identify your characteristics and the challenges you face.
Through the unveiling of past traumas, we'll realize that not all wounds can be reconciled. We cannot make amends for all that happened in the past that caused us pain. Certain events must be endured, while others allow for closure.
As you journey through life, you cultivate a greater sense of self-awareness and self-acceptance. You become adaptable and be resilient by navigating through the twists and turns of your own unique path.
xx
ET
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