MAMA
Mama, for sure, was the very first word I said
Mama, saying it, is always a lingering sound
Mama, seeing you keeps me sane
Mama, being with you washes my pain
Mama, you are my core
Mama, with you, nothing can be torn
Mama, you are beyond words and worlds
Mama, you are a haven of love, you are my love
with love,
ET
I Am Trying
This hole in my chest appears to be unfixable. This hollow within me continues to sting, and I am pained to admit that it truly hurts me to bits. I desperately want to return to my purest heart, the one that was beating normally. But each step I take brings me closer to more pain.
But please know that I am trying, as I always do. But each time, it becomes more difficult. I'm losing my way; I'm losing it, and I'm losing myself repeatedly. And questions keep popping into my head as the nights grow darker and deeper.
Will I ever get out of this trance? Will I ever be able to see my shadow? Will I finally be able to see who I want to be? Will I ever be happy? I just want to be moved and move closer to whom I truly needed to be. I just never want to have to question myself. To return to the origins of my existence, to embrace my entire being.
xx
ET
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