This hole in my chest appears to be unfixable. This hollow within me continues to sting, and I am pained to admit that it truly hurts me to bits. I desperately want to return to my purest heart, the one that was beating normally. But each step I take brings me closer to more pain.
But please know that I am trying, as I always do. But each time, it becomes more difficult. I'm losing my way; I'm losing it, and I'm losing myself repeatedly. And questions keep popping into my head as the nights grow darker and deeper.Will I ever get out of this trance? Will I ever be able to see my shadow? Will I finally be able to see who I want to be? Will I ever be happy? I just want to be moved and move closer to whom I truly needed to be. I just never want to have to question myself. To return to the origins of my existence, to embrace my entire being.
xx
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