Yearning for My Youth
One thing that has been circling my mind every time I stare at nothing, when my soul appears to be lost and wandering in unknown places. An epiphany that struck me on the spur of the moment made me realize, for who knows why and how, that all this time I've been grieving my old self.
I didn't have time to think about it because life happens in seconds, and for all I know, I was longing for my old self every time it vanished as time passed. Maybe we have unfinished business with our old selves, and it's haunting and hurting our present selves.
It took me a long time to realize that what really stings is what's on the inside.
Most of the time, we focus on the external forces that cause us to be angry, but we must also consider our internal forces. There are many factors to consider, but bruises from our youth, which we carry with us, primarily caused it as we grow older. Because we are longing for the past, we are betraying our present.
ET
Life is a Revelation
We're always looking for something else, anywhere.
However, life is and will always be a revelation.
That was my life's most profound realization.
Who would have guessed I'd go through phases? I would never have guessed it for the life of me. That I would get to know myself better than before. That these fleeting feelings will creep in at this hour. I would never have considered writing these before, and I am now discovering the beauty of writing. Every little thing that has happened has been a revelation. Perhaps life is full of revelations right before our eyes.
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ET